Monday, October 13, 2008

Once Upon a Time in an Urban Jungle...

Two people went into a coffee shop for breakfast.
It was a cold fall morning in the middle of some tall tall buildings.
As they approached the door, a homeless man was speaking to himself with few intelligible words.
The couple went in, placed their order, made their purchase, and waited for their food and drinks to be prepared.
Without saying anything, the man of the couple went back to the counter and made a second purchase of coffee and breakfast.
When the couple left the coffee shop, he asked the homeless man if he liked coffee,
and passed on the drink and food.
As the couple made their way to continue their day,
they looked back to see the homeless man with his coffee and breakfast wiping his eyes.

Friday, October 03, 2008

An update, of sorts

so, a lot has been going on over the past couple of months, and its not easy to post here because there are things that are still in flux. I thought I would post an update anyway, so that if you do visit this blog, you would know where I am.
I have been
- releasing the habits
- recognizing patterns
- letting go of the fetters
- thinking about all the "one days"
I've been making plans for tomorrow, and next month, next year, and my life
I have accepted that I am not young, and need to stop putting off the things that I want to do. Instead, I need to embrace my life and demand that every second count.
I have learned quite a bit...
I have learned what I need from friendship, I have learned to be selfish, I have learned to put my own needs first, I have learned to ask for what I want.
I have come to recognize what I deserve, and its much more than what I have been getting.
I've come to understand the characteristics I appreciate in people, and those I don't.
I am learning how to have healthy conflict. Conflict that resolves, builds trust, and allows growth.
I am learning to accept care.
I am being cared for.
I am having fun
and it is not only fun that I have created; fun is being created for me.
I have found peace.
real peace.
not just peace created by denial and compromise
I am grateful for the people in my life who see it as it is, who accept me for who I am, eventhough they may not understand.
I am remembering who I am, and I am making choices that pay homage to that person.