An update, of sorts

so, a lot has been going on over the past couple of months, and its not easy to post here because there are things that are still in flux. I thought I would post an update anyway, so that if you do visit this blog, you would know where I am.

 

I have been

- releasing the habits

- recognizing patterns

- letting go of the fetters

- thinking about all the "one days"

I've been making plans for tomorrow, and next month, next year, and my life

 

I have accepted that I am not young, and need to stop putting off the things that I want to do. Instead, I need to embrace my life and demand that every second count.

 

I have learned quite a bit...

 

I have learned what I need from friendship, I have learned to be selfish, I have learned to put my own needs first, I have learned to ask for what I want.

I have come to recognize what I deserve, and its much more than what I have been getting.

I've come to understand the characteristics I appreciate in people, and those I don't.

I am learning how to have healthy conflict. Conflict that resolves, builds trust, and allows growth.

  

I am learning to accept care.

I am being cared for.

 

I am having fun

and it is not only fun that I have created; fun is being created for me.

 

I have found peace.

real peace.

not just peace created by denial and compromise

 

I am grateful for the people in my life who see it as it is, who accept me for who I am, eventhough they may not understand.

 

I am remembering who I am, and I am making choices that pay homage to that person.