Monday, December 22, 2008
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
I have spent 0 days in my office over the past 4 weeks. Instead, I've been driving around southern Arizona, staying in Tucson hotels, and flying back and forth to Fort Worth Texas. I am seriously hoping there is some calm over this Thanksgiving weekend. I even said a prayer... it went like this:
Please have everyone take the weekend off! Please let the emails and phone calls stop!
So, I'm sitting on a conference call right now, and I'm so burned out, I'm sick of working... so I'm venting into my Blog about the insanity that is the pace of work right now. I am hoping beyond hope that this ends soon... and I've had that thought a million times now. Everytime I think I see an end, a light at the end of a tunnel, it gets extended.
I joke with people about it...
- at one point, about 8/9 months ago, I joked that I was going to get pregnant so that by now I'd be on maternity leave;
- then I started trying to get fired, noone would buy it;
- my latest is to ask someone to shoot me.
There are a lot of people at my meetings with guns, and I figure if they give me a good shot somewhere, I'd be able to be in hospital for a couple months; they won't do it.
- so, I'm starting to realize that the only thing left is to quit.
But I'm not a quitter.
One day it has to end on its own, don't you think?
Eventually all of this will be built, it has to end.
Monday, October 13, 2008
Friday, October 03, 2008
Monday, August 18, 2008
Thursday, August 07, 2008
Thursday, July 24, 2008
I also have been resisting the resulting comments and emotions that will result in the sharing of this info...
Since I feel badly that I have not shared, I'll suck it up! and deal with the repurcussions.
At the end of June, I moved out of the house, and ended my relationship with Greg.
Since this is a public forum, I won't go into too much of the details, so if you want to know more, you'll have to let me know.
He and I have been having concerns for the past couple of years. Since he is a very private person, its not something that we have discussed openly. And since we are both adult, we were able to continue our lives without it having too much of an effect on the outward expression.
I have moved into a 2-bed condo that's in Phoenix, close to South Mountain (near where Matt used to live). I have the cats. Greg is going to stay in the house.
He and I are still talking and after some time, I'm sure we will be able to have a friendship, but right now, we obviously need to let some of the emotions pass and the intensity die down.
It has been interesting having the opportunity to start over, and I'm excited about some of the possibilities that come out of a future that is an open book. I am thinking that I will leave the Phoenix area, as this is not a place that I have ever really wanted to live. How that will happen, and when, I don't know... I would obviously not do anything until the responsibilities of my current work situation have been met.
So, that's the news.
Saturday, June 14, 2008
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Just because I don't want to have kids of my own, doesn't mean that I don't like kids. I actually love spending time with children, especially small ones, because you are always surprised, entertained, and educated by the way they process what's around them; and I love that!
anyway... Dad and son came over to get me... I haven't seen the 3YO since last summer, and I thought maybe if they picked me up, there'd be a lot about my house for him to remember, and he wouldn't be so shy. It worked. He was taking my hand, talking to me, and letting me pick him up right away. Off we went to the swimming lessons and dad and I were talking about how we were both expecting a FREAK OUT! Last summer when they were at my house, the 3YO would not get into the pool, even with someone holding him, he was very afraid!
When we got there, we had to wait a while to fill out paperwork, and he and I walked around looking at all the rooms of kids swimming, playing, etc. He got pretty excited to be one of those kids. I thought that was a good sign, but thought that as soon as the reality of what it meant to be IN the water hit, he'd freak!
When we went into the room with the pools, he desperately wanted to jump in and make a big splash like all the other kids. Dad and I knew that would be a bad thing because it was obvious that he hadn't associated the big splash with being under water, so we held his hand and explained he had to have his swimming lesson first. This was not an easy action to stop. Its not that easy to negotiate with a 3YO when you can't even hear yourself talk from the noise and the stimulation in the room is overwhelming!
When it was our time to go to the lesson, we were in a class with another 3YO who knew what he was doing, and a 10MONTH old baby! The teacher takes each kid out into the pool one at a time and does the exercise... all associated with saving yourself if you fall in the pool... NOT about actually swimming. I was really impressed at her patience, how easy it was for her to get him in the water, floating, following her direction, doing what she was asking. It was amazing! He was smiling, and looking at us, very pleased with himself. That was, until he realized that the instruction to "blow bubbles" meant there was the potential to get your WHOLE FACE IN THE WATER! and he did not like that! now you could see a little bit of the panic, but the teacher was so calm, that he was ok, but refused to blow bubbles again! He did the rest of the class, and kept asking if he could go swimming; I think that the jumping and splashing was what he associated with "swimming".
So after the lesson, we went back into the free-swim pool, and thanks to my planning (!) at least one of us had on appropriate attire for "swimming" with a 3YO in a pool that had a step-off that would result in him being over his head in water! so, we walked around the step for a while with me explaining to him that if he crossed the blue line he would have to blow bubbles. Eventually he got it, and we just circled the pool until Dad did the "time-to-leave" count down.
After they had dropped me off home, and left, I realized how crazy this whole parenting thing is. Not once during the time that I'd been with them had I thought about my life, work, me, my needs. I'd been in situations that were incredibly overstimulating for the senses - noise, colors, movement, activity - and had to be very focused on the reality of a little guy who had the potential to be in panic. I was actually amazed that the insanity of the location wasn't throwing the kid off the edge; but I think that his daily life at daycare must be just as full of stimulation... so maybe he's better equipped to cope than me.
I am also sure that when you are a parent, you get used to the giving, and you learn to cope with getting life done at the same time. But I can tell you, that after they left, and Greg and I looked at each other to decide what we were going to do for the rest of the day, every decision felt indulgent, OVER indulgent.
But boy, was I glad that I had made the choices in life that I have, and that the afternoon Greg and I planned together was possible!
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Monday, May 12, 2008
Thursday, May 01, 2008
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Monday, April 28, 2008
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Today, it is raining as if it won't stop, which is fitting because it is the day of family separation. Greg and I are at the Phuket waiting for the flight that will take us on the final leg of our adventure - Bangkok.
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Sunday, April 27, 2008
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Mary's friend's huband is the exec chef and told us we need to make the move.
It was an overwhelming experience to walk around this place. Will share more photos on return. Or look up Sala Phuket online.
And that's where we are at...
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Saturday, April 19, 2008
Sunday, April 13, 2008
We see a lot of shows at SCA, and every now and again, they are noteworthy.
We realized a while ago that the people who put the program together select artists that are unique, innovative, often well-known, but always interesting. We get to pay between $30 and $40 to see shows that probably cost over $100 in their resident locations. The amphitheater honestly has no bad seat. And our experience is always enjoyable.
We mostly go to the jazz, latin music and dance shows. The organization allows you to pay a "series" price when you purchase 4 or more shows from the whole program, so you are not restricted in your selection. We started out going to only 4, and as our salaries have increased, we have purchased more and more tickets; to the point where we are close to seeing every show in the program that interests us. I say all this because I think it exemplifies exactly how much we appreciate SCA (and if anyone lands here because they Googled it, I want to make sure that's understood).
Anyway... we see a lot of dance shows. They are always interesting and entertaining; and we are always impressed by the skills of the dancers. But last weekend, was a show that was remarkable. The only other choreographer that has made me speechless is Ohad Naharin, whose pieces we have seen performed by the Hubbard Street and Le Grande Ballet de Montreal.
Last week, it was David Parsons.
Every piece was energetic and fun and happy and positive. There wasn't even one solo/duet that had a little dramatic for the reason of being dramatic moment. The dancers were having so much incredible fun you could see it on their faces. They weren't just smiling, they were laughing, and ooh'ing, and connecting with each other in the exuberance of the choreography. The movement was creative and different, there wasn't any running in circles, or just running around to "use the whole stage". And specifically, here are the pieces of note:
Caught: who would ever thought that this was possible! a pairing between a dancer and a lighting person to truly take advantage of the strobe. You have to watch to believe!
Shining Star: Homage to the 70's.
Sleep Study: dancers in pajamas, sleeping on the floor - seriously, the whole piece was on the floor, moving around as you would in sleep! how come noone has ever thought of anything like that before?!
In the End: dancers in jeans! and T-shirts dancing to a medley of Dave Matthews Band music. Unbelievable! Its been a long time since I've seen music expressed by dance so effectively. If Dave Matthews has ever seen this piece, I'd love to know what he thinks because if I were him, I'd make it my music video!
If you watch the video for Satellite, you'll see that he finds patterns beneath the music that he brings to the foreground through the choreography... amazing! you'll never hear that song the same again!
Oftentimes you want to get up and dance in your spot when you see a show at SCA, but this time, I wanted to get up and run on stage to be with these people in this piece! I wanted to quit my job and start training all day so that I could be part of the Parsons Dance Company, and you know what... that's the first thing Greg said too when we walked out!
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
Saturday, March 29, 2008
Thursday, March 27, 2008
Sunday, March 23, 2008
here is a selection of the most common brands at autox:
They are all round!
here are the exceptions:
of course this one is a hybrid:
and this is what marks me as a "girl"; do you see the differences between these 2 cars?
the only way I can tell is to look at the logos.
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Saturday, March 08, 2008
Saturday, March 01, 2008
Now, in some contexts, that could be considered a "tool".
Maybe I'm watching evolution in action, and the next thing you know he'll be walking upright on his back legs!
Friday, February 08, 2008
There was a profound thought about John McCain, something moaning about men and dishwashers... oh, I remember that one!
The other day, instead of unloading the dishwasher, Greg put DIRTY dishes IN it.
I asked myself... how can you not think to look at the FULL dishwasher to see if maybe the dishes are clean? How can you not notice that there is no food or beverage on the inside of the tank? Am I asking too much of you?
And so I ran it again!
Work = busy
Life = low-key
we have some events coming up... autox this weekend; Greg's 24 hour bike race next; so mayhaps there will be some photos a-posting.
Sunday, February 03, 2008
I don't read the newspaper - the ink makes me sneeze
I get my news from the 30 mins or so of NPR in the morning
and listening to Slate Magazine daily podcasts
I give my attention to these sources because I generally feel that they are unbiased and present just the news.
Well, I know that they are biased. And most of the time, I don't notice the colorings and opinions of the presenter woven into the general text of the presentation.
The other day I did.
There was a story about the bombing of a compound in Afghanistan where an alqaida leader was killed.
And the announcer phrased the sentence like this:
...bombing of a compound where 21 people were killed including an alqaida leader. This is great news 'cause this guy was high up in the chain and having him dead is good for the WORLD...
of course, a bunch of people died in Iraq too, so a couple sentences later we had:
...over 15 people were killed in a suicide bombing, this brings the death toll this morning to 20..
or something like that.
Anyway... the gist is that when a guy "we" think is bad gets killed, doesn't matter how many innocent bystanders are also gone.
Dead people are dead people... it doesn't matter who did the killing or what the reasoning was. Don't pretend its otherwise.
We stared at a lot of this:
we stayed here:
we saw lots of these:
we did some of this:
and even got to satisfy our professional cravings:
and of course,
Sunset on our Farm:
Sunday, January 13, 2008
Monday, January 07, 2008
Saturday, January 05, 2008
I really like the whole Xmas on Tues, NYE on Tues thing... psychologically, its nicer to have days off AFTER the weekend rather than before.
So what did we do?
Small - family friendly present exchange on Tues
A delicious M&M dinner
A post-dinner gift exchange with friends
Cocktail party at friends on Friday
Chilling on Sat
Cocktail party at our house on Sun...
And chilling at home on NYE.
and back to work.
I spent most of the first week back (all 3 days of it) with a headache 'cause I was not ready for the pace!