I see the sky as blue
everyone else is telling me they see the sky as green.
I just don't see the sky as green, its so obviously blue, how can you even imagine there is green in there!
and yet, because you are all telling me you see green,
and you're writing about how good that green feels,
and you're celebrating because the sky is green.
I start to feel left out.
Like I WISH I could see the green, I just wish I could, because then maybe I wouldn't feel left out.
But I just don't. I just don't see green.
I start hunting down other people who see the sky as blue, and at every turn, I find more people who tell me its green.
Some people start out saying its blue, and then over time, their blue turns more and more green. And there is no way for me to know why they change their minds.
Is it because they always saw the green, and just were pretending to see blue?
I feel lonely, like there is noone like me, that I'm a deviant (well, I know I am a deviant)... basically lonely.
Because I don't really know anyone else who sees the sky as blue.
this past weekend, one of my non-breeder friends actually told me that she is seeing natural-born children in her future more and more.
The sky is getting greener for her, and I still don't see it.